Hardest Thanksgiving Ever

Well for those of you that came to see pics of the boys sorry to disappoint I will be the emotional blogger today.

We left out on Wednesday morning to go to Angelo where Daniel's family is. We were staying with Adam, Daniel's brother. Any way this is my first thanksgiving with out my mother in law and all the way to Angelo every little bit I would just tear up and the closer we got the more upset my tummy was over the anticipation of the emotional roller coaster I was already on. We got to Angelo and Adam and Kari welcomed us and it was so nice to get the kids out of the truck. Kudos to Adam and Kari they have recently redone almost every room in their house it was nicely put together and almost completely baby proof :) . THANK YOU BOTH. So any way shortly after we got there Rebecca, Daniel's sis, came over. With Rebecca and I both on emotional overdrive even though not much was said I was pretty worn out. The boys went to bed and I made the last batch of corn bread for the dressing while Kari made all the toast. I made the pea salad and then I was pretty well done except getting the turkey put in the roaster. When it came to the chocolate pie it was more than I could deal with emotionally so... Adam and Daniel came to the rescue and got right to work. Mom (Paula) was the only one to ever make the chocolate pie. So while the boys made pie Kari and I went to see Becca at work where I cried for the billionth time that day.

Thursday was not so bad for me since I had prepared all day the day before. making the dressing was the hardest part of the day since I missed Mom, but I did the best I have ever done and that made it all better I think mom would have liked it. Kari was so great to go for a walk with me that evening taking the boys in strollers. it helped to just be out out of the house for a little while.

Then on Friday I had to leave my hubby in Angelo since he had to work the next day and I cried again. After about 50 miles I was much better although missing him terribly. I was only 45 miles out of Delrio when Aaron could not take his wet diaper anymore. So I stopped at the only gas station for almost 90 miles to change him. When we came out there was a puddle under the truck. I started it and headed for the highway and the needle hit HOT. So.. no cell service I called mom and Dad who were on the lake in del rio from the little gas station and waited. Of course when they got there the truck was fine and did not overheat again. So.. to make a very long weekend short I had a great time with my family and they were great emotional support. I missed my hubby and I am so glad to be home.

Halloween

This year Daddy had to work so the trick or treat was up to the mommy. Here are some pictures of my little skunk Aaron and my nice dragon as Kody says. By the way dragons say "fire".

For even better pics you can visit http://tisha.squarespace.com/blog/2008/11/12/the-dragon-the-skunk.htmlthis lady has some talent.

Granny Jones' B-day

Today is my granny's birthday I so wish was around to see my precious boys. I miss her so much every year on this day. 2 years ago about this time I was sitting through the first of four long hours of false labor wondering if I needed to call mom and find Kody a sitter. Praying that this would be the day that little Aaron would finally arrive. He chose to wait a whole week more even though I had contractions 5 miutes apart all night long. Instead his cousin suprised us and was born that night. Her name is Scout from To Kill A Mockingbird I am so happy she shares my Granny's birthday. So happy Birthday to you Miss Scout. I miss you Granny.

Hello to all

Life is going by so quickly the boys are growing and are not my little babies anymore. Since the loss of Daniel's Mom every milestone is bitter sweet. I know I will look up in just few weeks my little one will 2 and begin adventures in potty training with his big bro who is only barely making progress.
I feel so incompetent at times with this potty training stuff Kody will not poo in the potty or in underwear so that is nice, but he always wants diaper. He says he wants to be a baby from time to time and I find it over whelmingly frustrating. I love my kidos and I love staying home with them I just wish there was a potty training boot camp for my little one I could send him and he would come home ready to roll. (for free of course). He has really totally gotten the pee, pee in the potty part and that is awesome. He made it through 3 football games without an accident. He has set through church and he is in his own Sunday school class. He has stopped having nightmares as often and when he does. We just tell him that God will keep him safe from monsters and we say a prayer and he settles down. I am so pleased with the progress that Kody is making daily.
Aaron is growing as well and his language skills are more advanced than Kody's were at his age. Kody already talks to much some times so this is a scary proposition. Aaron makes friends so easily and all the little kids a church love him. He has only recently learned to stand up for himself when others are not so nice. He is very affectionate and already has all the language skills for potty training. I just hope he is not as stubborn as Kody has been. I am so ready to spend less on diapers. Thanks for taking the time to check in more later Asta....

We Went to the Circus and it WAS one

So tonight we went to the circus the boys were pretty well entertained until intermission. I had them both on their little kid leashes. Yes that's right leashes they are a life saver. With them they had a lot of freedom but were always with in reach and safe. My kidos were pretty good except for spilling Goldfish everywhere and then eating them off the ground major gross at an outside circus. Anyway as I said everything was great for the first half. During intermission we had the chance to go down into one of the outer rings to ride the elephants. So.... we did. It is something else managing 2 little boys who are excited about the biggest animal ever seen with their eyes. Not the best picture cause that little tiny fellow we are sitting on would not stand still. But we did pay 14 dollars to ride it not just sit on it. Click on the picture to enlarge and you can see it better.



So anyway you are thinking great y'all are having fun.... well here we go the crying and griping begins.

See that little yellow circle inside it is Kody's left shoe. This caused only a very minor problem with a small amount fussing until the return of the shoe. The larger issue was when other people began to get o Kody's Elephant. After a short little talk he was ready to move on. Then it was the ponies he wanted to ride. I talked him out of that and then things fell apart. Kody saw the jump house there was only 6 minutes of intermission left and it would have cost 10 bucks to allow them to jump in it for 3 minutes. NO THANKS. Well the crying began and did not stop we went and set down and bought a coloring book, but the crying continued. They then announce that it will be another 5 mins til the show begins. However, since it was well past bath time and close to bed time and the kids were still falling apart and I could not find my phone; we headed out to the truck.

On the way to the truck I told Kody I would race him to the truck which stopped the crying until he lost his balance and fell to the ground. A new level of wailing began and did not stop until I gave him a chocolate milk from McDonald's. We finally made it home got baths, teeth brushed, clothes on, prayer, song and in bed. So now I am sitting down to a little peace and quiet and some office reruns. So I am going to get on with the peace now.

recent family change

So almost 2 weeks has passed since Daniel and Adam drove up to announce that my mother in law passed away. We had a whirl wind weekend of funeral arrangements. It is so life altering to lose someone so close. I am not a stranger to loss, however I have never lost anyone but a cousin who was not sick and dieing at the time. Paula was ill for the last 5 years and in poor health, but to be honest this was unexpected. She was a great mom to Daniel and a Great mother in law to me. She will be so missed. Everytime I think about a holiday I picture us in the kitchen working side by side. I am not looking forward to our first thanksgiving with out her touch. I know mom not to much sage in the dressing. I have learned from her and hope I can pass on what I have learned to the grandchildren she barely got a chance to know and the ones she will never get to.

It is funny the things that effect you when you lose your loved one. I was going to mail her a picture of the boys the day she died I had it framed and was about to find a box when the annoucement came.

Now I can not look at my own wall where I have this same picture framed that I do not think, "Mom never even saw this picture." It seems like a really silly thought as it is only a picture and would not help her in any way. I miss her and I wish we had more time together. I am so thankful for the time that God granted us with her and the great memories that I will do my best to share with my babies so that they will know their Grandma through me. Please be in prayer for my sister in law Rebecca. This has effected us all, but she is truely suffering with the loss of her mom. Thanks

New pics It has been 6 months so here it is pics of the boys

New Pictures

I just wanted to update and share some new pictures of my babies most of these were taken at Thanksgiving.

Just Aaron

Here are some cute pics of Aaron we took after his bath the other night.

More pictures

Boys playing in the yard

Some videos of the boys

These videos don't have the best sound or quality since I took them with my little digital camera ,but I still wanted to share them.
Please pray for my family and church family as we are trying to fill in at church when we do not have a pastor or youth minister. I have taken over allot of the youth responsibilities and this is pretty stressful and keeps me super busy.

Aaron loves to swing


Kody knows how old he is... listen closely. He is getting so big and he only knows the number 2, but we are working on that.

Aaron's first Spaghetti dinner

I think that is enough said



I know 2 posts in one day, but I just had to share these sweet faces with everyone.

2 months since my last post

Ok so I thought it was high time to post some more pics of the boys and give some updates.


So anyway things are really busy here I have not been home on a weekend in over a month. This last weekend was Rock the desert in Midland Tx so since we are short a pastor and youth leader Daniel and I have stepped in to help out. I took one youth member and daniel stayed at home with the kids. I took my car and about half way there the stangest thing happened a plastic pulley that helps control the belt that runs everthing in the car shattered, and here I was on the side of the road with someone else's child. To make a very long story short I had to have my car towed and be picked up and travel the 50 mins back to Angelo with my wonderful bro in law who ran to my rescue. At this point I had given up on RTD but then I asked Adam, the BRO IN LAW to the rescue, if I could borrow his car. He said yes, so after a long and trying day we made it to Midland checked into the hotel and slept for a few hours. The next morning we left out to Rock the Desert. It was a cool experience. I don't think I have ever seen so many people. Although most of the music was not my cup of tea I had a great time and enjoyed alot of the performances. I would do it again that is for sure. Hopefully my car will be back and running soon. That was totally the worst. I got a little too much sun on top of my head and woke up very sick on Sunday so I missed church, but I am sure everyone understood. So I guess this is all for now I hope you like the pics of my babies and my wonderful hubby who survived a whole weekend with out me.

I am so tired, but have to talk

So almost exactly a year ago I lost my closest cousin. No not to death but to a complete and total rejection. At first I told my self I had done nothing wrong and felt a little angry (ok very angry) that she felt that way. Well that all changed this weekend. I saw her only briefly in a Walmart and we chatted just a little. It hurt so bad to see her the cousin that was as close as sister only a year ago and know that now we merely related and barely knew each other or what to say to one another. It has been breaking my heart for a year and finally I saw today that the blame rests squarely on my shoulders in this department of my life. You see I love my cousin and my Aunt unconditionally I was so close to them that I felt I could go to them with anything and that I would and still would go to the mat for them. But I did something stupid I decided to be the middle man. See over the years there have been alot of hard feelings in my family. By Hard I mean hurtful things said and done. Although I have always tried to walk very carefully and just love everyone with all I had, well let's just say I got stupid. I forgot that the most important thing I could do was be there and to love everyone. I did not stop loving anyone for a second but I stuck my nose(more like walked) in to where I did not belong. I asked questions that were none of my business and because I decided to do this my cousin and my wonderful Aunt got hurt. For this I am truly sorry.
I know that for a year now I have tried to fix things but I was going about it all wrong and in turn have caused more hurt. So... after alot of prayers I have decided to just stop. It hurts me tremendously to take a step back and to let them live their lives because I miss them, but if it hurts them for me to try to force my way in then for them and only them I will step back. I hope to see them in passing again many more times and maybe some day they can find it in their hearts to trust me again and allow me one toe in their lives. But, if this is not to be and it is easier for them to shut me out then to risk the hurt I understand and I will love them from a distance. So in closing I am sorry and I wish things were different, but they aren't and I will always be here. I hope this post does not end up causing more pain, but if it does you will know this is the last time I will try to force my self into your life and I love you and always will. Good night.
To everyone else thanks for reading and please pray for me to be strong to promise and to be the cousin and niece they need for me to be; even if that means the one they no longer know.

I am doing well

My first stiry strip fell off today so I have seen the first of my 4 cuts from the doc. Although they are straight they are still a little sore but otherwise they look good well the one I can see does anyway. I have a check up tomorrow with the doc to make sure I am good to go and then mom and I are going to go up to High Pine My mom's home and hang out play cards and do our nails. I plan to take pics of my boys and I will share them with you. Please continue to pray for my cuz suz she is doing pretty good, but those 4 babies are getting pretty heavy and that can be hard on a mommy and may not allow the babies to reach their full term so please pray you can check on her at www.thelifeofsuz.blogspot.com .
Ok this all for now I am going to get my hair cut for the first time since I was prego with Aaron nothing dramatic just some much needed maintance.

Oh My Gosh

I hope all of you remember where you were this evening. You may remember it for a while now. I just watched LeBron James single-handedly beat the Pistons. He scored the last 25 points and 29 of the final 30. Just insane. I was amazed by some of the shots he was taking, and hitting. Just incredible. Anyone who loves basketball is slightly sad because the rest of the Cavs seem to be so crappy, but most of us are just amazed that something like that just happened. So very fantastic.

We made it to Uvalde/Brackettville just fine. Sunni has to be at the hospital by 7:00 in the morning.

Everyone that can should go to the FCA All-Star Football Game in Abilene's Shotwell Stadium Saturday night at 7:00. It's going to be great. Will Schumann is playing, Abby Probst is cheering, Glen Jones is coaching, and Terry Bean is giving the invocation. Everyone who can, should definitely be there.

Ok it has been almost a month

I am having surgery in 2 days on Friday early in the morning. I have numerous stones in my gallbladder and the number alone places me at risk of infection so... we are taking that sucker out of there. Any way I am very nervous and all day have been trying to forget about it and do the little things I need to do to prepare the boys and my self for being gone for a week. I am going to have the surgery in Uvalde,TX so that it will be easier on my mom who will be helping with the boys. Daniel is going to start a 3 day conference on Monday and then on Thursday leave for a fun boys coaching trip to Ria Dosa (?spelling?). So he will be gone all week and won't be able to help with the boys as I recover. I hope that he has a truly great time he has really been looking forward to this trip and to be honest he really deserves it.
If anyone reads this please pray for me I know it is not that big of a deal, but I am scared so please pray for my self and my family. Especially my mom as she will be doing allot of the care giving for my boys for a few days.
Anyway life goes on please also pray for our youth group we are currently without a youth minister and the attendance truly displays this. Daniel and I are filling in where needed but please pray that we (our church) finds someone to help our youth find their ways to Christ.
Thanks for your prayers and I will post after the surgery to let you know how I am.

so much to tell

Ok so about 2 1/2 weeks ago I found out I had gall stones, when what I thought I had was severe acid reflux. So now my doc is scheduling surgery to take out my gall bladder. So anyway I am not sure exactly when but they should be scheduling it for the begining of June.
So on with the story Aaron is growing like crazy and sitting up like crazy. He has slept though the night 4 nights in a row. So I feel like I have won the war.
Kody is growing too and we are having a hard time with him getting diaper rash it is getting pretty severe and somedays it clears up all together. It is so crazy we treat it and gets better then it gets real bad and then it gets better. Any suggestions would be great.
Ok so Daniel has passed his Texes exam and is now cert in pe health math and science. So our lives are a little busy but things are going well over all.

God's beautiful creations

I took the boys for or usual walk we have not been able to go for almost a week since it rained nearly every day last week. Well, to my suprise God gave us such beauty with our rain. The walking track that we walk on has a huge field in middle since the track is almost a mile all the way around. It is filled with these beautiful flowers that really made the walk special even though about half way Aaron decided he was tired of the walk. So I picked some since my camera phone could not do them justice so I could share them I only picked one bunch of blue bonnets so that they could soon fill the whole area. I hope you enjoy my flowers I wish you could see them for your selves. If you decide you have to see them for yourself come on over I will give you the tour.

Prayer is so important

For months my kids have been keeping me from getting good sleep. I have been so tired that I can not sleep at times or when I do fall asleep and Aaron cries I imagine it is part of my dream and have the hardest waking up. Sometimes when I lay down the second I close my eyes I hear him crying even if he is fast asleep. Any way, I honestly don't know why I did not do it before I mean I would pray that the little amount of sleep I got would be adequate and that God would help me to function on the sleep I did get, but I did not pray for Aaron to sleep. I begged him to sleep, but I never asked God to give him sleep. Til a friend of Daniel's said that we needed to pray for peace and sleep for both of our children. And I thought of course what was I thinking it was so odd that I had not asked for this before. SO.... Now every night before I put the boys down for the night I pray that God will give them good health, peace, and sleep. It is working Aaron is still not sleeping through the night but it does not take 2-3hours to get him back to sleep sometimes it only takes 15 mins. So what I really want to do is encourage others to pray for their children to have peace and sleep. I pray for my boys all the time and always have but, for some reason I never thought about praying for the little things we all need. I feel that God has given me renewed energy and more patience and most of all God has given me peace by giving it to my children.